| | I have decided to try something new this semester. I am focused on my education because I need to do the best I can. I decided that last semester, I spent WAY TO MUCH TIME, trying to get my friends to do stuff with me. This semster I decided, I am not going to do that anymore. I am so sick of people not putting effort into our friendship. So far, I have not called anyone, or made any plans and I knew this would happen. NO ONE CALLS, NO ONE EMAILS, NOTHING! I was upset at first but now I am ok with it. People ask me why they never see me and I bluntly tell them "I have a cell phone and a computer, I am reachable." It just was bugging me today that I wasted so much time putting in friendships that obviously dont mean anything to my so called "friends" So, I found another avenue, writing which I love to do. I am reading a lot more and I am completely focused on school. I have one really close guy friend that I get to hang out with once a week which is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! I am helping out with Spring Sing so I am not in my apartment all the time. Am I really as content as I say I am? Or am I making myself believe that so I dont feel horrible about myself? I am hesitant to write about this because I dont want my "friends" to call me out of pity to do something. |
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| I am going to try xanga again! |
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| Hello Friends! Sorry I haven't written in a while things have been very stressful. School is good, I am going to slow it down a bit and drop one of my classes so I can get straight A's. My family is good I guess. I got to finally talk to my aunt last night. I needed that. Things with my friends are coming along better. I have decided that I am just going to be civil with my roommate for the next two months till she moves out. My boyfriend is coming home very soon! I better get back to paying attention to class! Love, AB |
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| Hello Friends! San Antonio has changed my mind about a lot of things. I realized that I worry to much about stupid pointless thing. This is kind of shocking to me that I worried so much. I want to go back with a more relaxed approach to things... because I think that would help my school work improve.
I want to talk with my boyfriend. I miss him so much. I dream about him almost every night which makes my heart wonderful. I think about him consently. I want him to come home so I can hold him in my arms and show him how much I do care for him. He is a blessing in my life whether he knows it or not. I prayer that he is safe and healthy and that he will come home to me soon.
With bunches of Love,
AB |
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| I am in San Antonio! I could not be happier. I needed this vacation soo bad and I have wonderful friends who are letting me stay with them. Ben and Katy are absolutely adorable together and they have to be one of the cutest married couples I have ever seen! We are going around San Antonio, then probably coming back and waching a movie or something miss y'all so much. AB |
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